Today I’ve  been thinking…
if I should redo it, which part of my life?
then I think the answer is…
Perhaps I shouldn’t  have been born in the first place.

Leigh Nash

My lifetime Singer means that even after a very long time, When I heard her voice my heart still flutters 🙂

Yesh! She’s the owner of the heavenly voice Leigh Nash. She’s actually part of Sixpence None The Richer. Their song such as Kiss Me (I’m still learning the guitar streaming hahah), Don’t dream it’s over, and I need to be Next To You, are still linger in my ear 😉

The Wall Around Me

I recently realized that …

Actually I have been building a wall around me.

A wall to protect me from crashing.

I set a line not to be crossed, to protect me from anything that has possibility to harm me in the future.

I put glove on my hand, so the thorn won’t hurt me.

I put ear-bud in my ear, to prevent me from hearing anything that will tuck my curiosity.

I choose not to mind anything outside, as I sharpened my instinct.

To be able to know something better than anyone else before anything even revealed.

Even when I know, I choose to be not knowing it, so I can keep the peace.

The wall has been started to built when human getting darker, to be stay on grey, because there’s nothing good come out from being dark. This is how human supposed to live, building a wall to protect themselves. So they can survive.

Yesh! You’re  right! Just like Attack on Titan, they built the wall against the giant. Okay okay, It’s Attack on Titan Live action coming to cinema soon. So I’m  just fooling around. But what I wrote above is true hahahah. PEACE!! 😀

The Proof of Happiness

There are a lot of things that I want to know, especially about human. Their character is very unique each another. I would like to study about it, maybe I should just go take a psychology department, I’m quite enjoying learning about human (sounds like I’m not human hahahah just kidding!).

There are 3 kind of people I know, and maybe there are more but I haven’t discovered all yet.

Those who trying to convince people that they’re happy.

Many people trying to convince people by justify their happiness so that people think they really happy. And lately there’s a place to prove your happiness named Path/Facebook or many other socmed apps. So you can just show off your happiness there (people using a kind version of word “share” instead of show-off).

For example there’s one of my friend “sharing” about his friend’s story on Path, that his friend (a woman) upload a photo of a car key and cool license plate with description “Thank you very much my hubby for this early birth present”.

They said there are 3 gates before something come out from your mouth;
1. is it true? Maybe yes, she did have a wonderful rich and royal husband, halelujah!
2. is it kind? This kind of act only risen up jealousy upon other house-wife in her friendlist who maybe doesn’t have a richie-royale-hubby like her so I find it’s not a kind act.
3. is it necessary? Nope, who gonna give a shit about that? And what would you get? hail? compliment? Oh, come on!

I wonder the true motive of that woman sharing a picture like that? something that come out from my mind it was the act of bragging. And What for? I just really don’t get it.

Then one day, I have a conversation about this with my friend, not the-richie-royale-hubby one (she isn’t my friend anyway), most of my friend are single so, we talk about the other things but the same content. She answer me that her act isn’t for bragging but sharing. Then I ask her, what would people get by that something she share about? I thought “Sharing” here means something informative and useful for others, but people nowadays just twist it like sh*t. Then she answer me that she upload it for her personal diary. She get what I meant already, she actually getting slapped by my words. So I told her, if she did really want a personal diary, she can start do blogging like me. No one gonna come to your blog unless people google it, so even you put thousands story bragging about anything you got, people who read it will be people who doesn’t know you, and drop by your site by their own wish. It’s avoiding the jealousy rise upon other people who do not wish to know anything about you.

There are other netizen who said something like “it’s my path!! my facebook!! it’s up to me to post what i want!! and you can just don’t have to see it if you don’t want to” And then they’re talking about the freedom of speech, geez…

Yes, you’re right, there’s nothing wrong about that, did I mention any right or wrong above? Nope.

I’m just asking you to give some consideration of living together on the same planet under the same galaxy for the sake of peace.

2. Those who trying to convince themselves that they’re happy

This one means that, they actually trying to justify that they have doing the right thing, that they have chosen the right one. This one still remain mystery for me, I still don’t understand…

For example, there’s a woman who marrying a guy, who she thinks a good guy, but then, after married, she found out that this guy is not as good as she think he was. Disappointed but she trying to convince herself that she’s in the right lane, and act like she’s really happy in front of the others will just attract people to talk behind her back. So she bragging about her hubby being out of town every weekend, people will just frown when they hear about that right? But then she said, that she was okay, that she get used to it, and trying to convince the others that her hubby is actually treat her right, just to prove that “Hey, I’m choosing the right one.”

On the other side, Me, really don’t understand why?
Why do they pretend to be happy when they’re not?
Why do they trying to prove their happiness to other people? Mostly because they don’t want to be pitied or being look down upon the society, so they getting on their defense mode, growing their thorn and fang, and start to make up things.
Does it even necessary?
Is happiness something the other people measures? Not yourself?

To be honest, did you or didn’t you, people don’t give a shit. people don’t know whether you tell lies or truth anyway? It doesn’t matter for them. So why bother about that? You can just be you in front of those peoples instead of being fake.

We are all living in this world for the first time, there’s always first time for everything, including living in this life, so I think making mistake is inevitable. We all did it, struggle it, and overcome it. That’s how life going.

3. Those who remained unseen

Mostly this kind of people is out of society, it’s still a mystery if they have a happiness life or they fall down to the misery, no one knows since they’d like to remain unseen. They don’t have path nor facebook when other people so hype about those socmed kind of thingy.

For example, one of my friend who just like this one, she was my high school friend, we ganged up around 6-7 girls, and spend so many times together. But one day, after graduation, she’s gone nowhere to be found. There are times when I hangout with her I acknowledge that she had inferiority complex. Perhaps, she just remain with us on that old days, just so she can finished the school smoothly without being left out, but in fact she actually not comfortable around us.

Maybe, she didn’t find herself clicked with us, so she disappear and maybe now she already have many other friend who clicked with her. I personally think she was one of my best friend in the old days, and so sad that our friendship just ended after graduation.

Well sometimes, someone you think your friend didn’t think the same way about you, did you really their friend? or did you just someone to fill their freetime?

So, Do you have to prove your happiness? I think Happiness it’s not something to be proven but to be felt. 😉



Back to the Myth!

Out of many Mythology I ever read, Greek Myth, Roman Myth, Egypt Myth, Norse Myth is the most I love one. And this time I’m going to tell you about Bifrost.  😉


In Norse Mythology, there are 9 realms on Yggdrasil (The World Tree), they believe that the root will lead you to the Svaltarheim the realm of dwarves and dark elves, down to Niflhel the realm of the dead, then Niflheim the realm of Ice and Muspellheim the realm of Fire. The horizontal branch will lead you to the Midgard the realm of man, Jotunheim the realm of Giant. The vertical branch will lead you to Alfheim the realm of Elves, Vanaheim the realm of Vanir, Asgard the realm of God.


So here the story goes, Loki was blamed for the dead of Baldr, the God of Light, over a mistletoe incident. And Skadi, the God of forest put him locked under a serpent mouth which poison keep dripping off. However he able to escape. The day Loki escape from Asgard, the battle to catch him broke the bifrost. (You can see this scene on the Movie Thor too, but in a twist story)

Thats why if in the past you keep hearing that the God come here and there, and you never ever heard about it anymore now. Because the bridge was broken due to that incident, so God unable to come down and say hi to us anymore. If you believe so hahahahah.

And the description of bifrost is similiar to the description of Rainbow. Old people believe that when the rainbow appear in the sky it means that God is having a walk down here visiting us. 😉


Actually it was just some part of a movie which for me it’s simply romantic. I dont really recommend the movie since it’s a comedy romance, but the comedy is rather not funny. And the romance is quite dry too. But I really like this one scene.

The daugther ask her father,
how do you tell mom that you love her?
I just came to her and said “I see love all over your face” (LOL- WTF)
then what did she said?
Nothing, she just throw her lips on me. *he-grins*

Hearing that, the daughter run to the guy she finally realized that she loved him, the guy who keep telling her that he like her, but she never think so. She biking along the road and he was there at the park, she’s fall from her bike, she gets up and said

I like you, I see love all over your face.

then before she even finished her line, the guy came closer and kiss her.

ahahaha, Isn’t it sweet enough? xD

But that only happens if the guy like you the way you do hahahaha. It would be awkward if he didnt love you, and everything will turn into and a sad love story. Rofl.

PS : I forgot the movie’s title, but it’s Thai Movie I watched long time ago.


It’s been such a looong looong time, since the last time I read horoscope. I used to read this on the magazine back then when I’m still such a young girl haha, not to mention that now I’m old, I’m still young as ever buahahah.

Today my friend post this picture on his instagram.


Since it was written in tagalog, I don’t understand the meaning, so I ask him, he said :

  1. Love : He will kiss you, but just in forehead. (Kyaaaah~ *squealing)
  2. Fortune : Stop asking for cellphone loads, be ashamed of yourself. (What the…?)
  3. Career : Your feet sweat hard. (Wha…??)

Out of all that, I hope the number one really happen muahahahaha…

I don’t understand number 2 nor the 3, Number 3 sounds like I’m going to have a hard time, don’t you think so? Then my friends, Joms said :

Horoscope applies differently on every person who received it, now it’s up to you how you read between the lines xD but for me I don’t take those things seriously.

Well-said, Joms!

As for me, I only take the good things (especially the number 1, hahahaha xD), and beware for the bad things, perhaps it did come to warn me?

How about you?:D