The Thing I Wish I Didn’t Know

Many people said that honest is always the best. It’s true, but for me it didn’t apply for everything in this world. The thing that applies for everything in this world is …

“Talk when you need to talk, and be quite when you need to be quite. “

There are some things that I wish I don’t know or maybe, not knowing it would be better. Doesn’t mean to deceive myself, but if by knowing it makes me grow darker, I choose not to know so it would be less miserable. Not knowing it doesn’t mean you should be told lies. It can just happen by not telling it. Lie is always a worst choice.

When Someone Re-gifted my Gift

Today I opened up my Facebook, it’s been such a long time since the last time I opened it up.  And I found out from a picture, that The gift I gave my friend is being re-gifted by my friend. The mutual feelings, of course it’s sad. I bought it all way along from a faraway place (another country) just for her to gift it to another person. Knowing it makes me doesn’t feel good at all; it makes me sad to the point that I wish I didn’t know that. It would be better if I didn’t open that Facebook that day. Maybe she doesn’t like my gift or maybe she’s struggling finding a gift for her friend so she gave my gift instead. There are a lot of question in my mind but… I won’t ruin my 10 years friendship just to ask her, “Why did you re-gift my gift?”.

 Whoever you ever slept with

I’m such an idealist person, even just a dot can ruin somebody image in my eyes. I know myself more than anyone, that’s why it’s just simple as…

I never ask this because I don’t wish to know.

And If I ever ask a question, I’m hoping for an honest answer.

5 years ago my boyfriend suddenly brought up this topic (he’s my ex now, living in Japan). I appreciate his courage and honest for telling me the things I don’t want to know. At that time, for sure I’m a bit scared of him, when he said that he “Almost” slept with his ex-gf. All over my mind is asking

“Almost…? Almost???? To which level? To what level the “almost” part? The part when both of them being naked? – LOL wild imagination hahaha

I know it’s ridiculous, you can imagine a teenager’s way of thinking from this hahaha. 6 years ago I’m still a cute pure innocence girl (LOL). I never bother with someone’s past, but it’s true that his image got a little damage in my eyes. You know right? That an idealist person is always wish to have something very ideal such as become someone’s first romance, etc etc hahaha. And the thing he told me is cracking my world, another word to describe this is “disappointed”.

I’m Such A Coward

In the other word is, I’m such a coward. I’m afraid to know,  afraid to be hurt. Sometimes maybe it sounds like I’m ignorant, but actually deep inside it’s just a barrier that I created to protect my fragile ideal world. Because by knowing it, sometimes it’s crack my world into pieces.

PS : Thank you for jumping into my page (or maybe you just accidentally hit this page LOL)  😀

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키다리 아저씨 (Kidari Ajeossi | Daddy Long Legs) by Baek Ah Yeon – Lyrics & English Translation

It took me at least 3 episodes before I completely fall for this drama, and…

This couple is hard to ressist!!! xD

키다리 아저씨 (Kidari Ajeossi | Daddy Long Legs)
Sung by 백아연 (Baek Ah Yeon)
청담동 앨리스 | Cheongdamdong Alice OST Part.3 (SBS 주말드라마)

Hangeul Lyrics

한걸음 한걸음 가요  그대도 내게로 와요
그대 작은 미소는  나에겐 전부가 돼요

Reff:
사랑이겠죠 이런 내 마음은
사랑이겠죠 부족하지만
눈을 감아도 귀를 막아도 그댄
느껴지는 내안의 사랑

닿을 수 없어도 돼요  만질 수 없어도 돼요
지금처럼 그대로  그 자리 그곳에 남아

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이렇게 그대만을 그리는데
이렇게 아무것도 못하는데
그대의 흔적조차 그리운데

그대의 마음마저 머문다면
그대의 눈길마저 비춘다면
내 전부 다 주어 도 모자라요

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Lyrics Romanization

Hangeoreum hangereum ga yo geudae do naegero wayo
Geudae jageun misoneun naegen jeonbu ga dwaeyo

Reff:
Sarangigetjyo ireon nae maeumeun
Sarangigetjyo bujok hajiman
Nuneul gamado gwireul maga do geudae
Neukkyeojineun nae anui sarang

Daheulsu eobseo do dwaeyo Manjilsu eobseo do dwaeyo
Jigeum cheoreom geudaero geu jari geugose nama

*Back to Reff

Ireohke geudaemaneul geurineunde
Ireohke amugeotdo mothaneunde
Geudaeui heunjeokjocha geuriunde
Geudaeui maeum majeo meo mundamyeon
Geudaeui nungilmajeo bichundamyeon
Nae jeonbu da jueodo mojarayo

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English Translation

Step by step I’m coming to you and you come to me too
your little smile has become my everything

Reff:
This kind of feeling, it must be love, right?
Though its lack, it must be love, right?
Even I close my eyes and shut my ears
You’re the love I felt within me

It’s okay even I cannot reach you, It’s okay even I cannot touch you
Please stay right there, at that place, just like now

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Like this I’m yearning for you
Like this, I’m unable to do anything
I even yearning for any of your trace

If I could have your heart stay in me
If I could have your eyes looking at me
Even I give you my everything that would not enough

*Back to Reff

PS :
Sorry for my poor english :3
Please take the full credit if you’re going to use it anywhere.

Hangeul : Daum (with improvement)
Lyrics romanization & English translation : aikawaringo
돕는 사람 :  J.J 오라버니

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November-December Summary : My One-sided Love Ended

Winter has come.
I am lazy writing on my blog lately, since I’m don’t have much to write either because my life quite boring. What happen lately to myself I will just sum it to one post.

Nov 14th 2012 – I lost my Kaori no Bukuro

But then after several weeks, I found it, its come back to me. Someone ever said this :

“Love, if it’s go away from you then it’s not meant for you. But if it’s find its way back to you, then that love is yours.”

Then is it means that this Kaori no Bukuro meant for me? fufuffuuu… 😀

Nov 16th 2012 – Dumped A Guy

November is indeed a love month. You can’t even count how many couples choose this month to throw their wedding party. Exactly, it’s a lovely Autumn that fit almost everyone for their D’Day. And I can’t believe what I’m doing in this lovely month. I dump a good guy in this lovely November.

I never understand the way of a guy thinking in his brain. For me, for sure :

“never offer a relationship to a guy/girl when they’re not in love with you, unless you want to get dumped.”

But in reality, things not going that way for several people. I really afraid that I will get a punishment for doing this thing… you know what I mean, reject someone’s heart is not an easy thing to do.

Nov 23th-29th 2012 – Trip to Thailand

I’m having a holiday for one week at Thailand. Traveling to Bangkok, Pattaya and Chiang Mai. It was very fun to the point that I wish I could spend the rest of my life like this. I will post the detailed of the trip later huhuhu.  And it was tired like hell.

Dec 2nd 2012 – My One-sided Crush Totally Ended Here

I have one crush, this one is last quite a long time. I have never really talk to him, and he’s not even my friend. This is a kind of crush that just by looking from a far away place, and find him charming the way he is. I got this crush on my 10th grade. I met him on the 1st class I attend when I’m still registering to enter the high school. I know it’s weird, I find him very attractive when all my friend didn’t think so. Sometimes I think maybe he’s someone important in my previous life hahaha.

It’s totally ended today because, he’s married today. Of course with someone he loves. The end.

Dec 15th 2012 – Bought A New LED Monitor

After having a holiday for one week abroad the country. I found my monitor (for computer) deceased without any reason. Even my PASOKON (the name of my CPU) is hard to start up. After investigate it my self, I find that my monitor is not working anymore. So I’ve been living without computer for 3 weeks. How can I survive? Of course thanks to my tablet. I can survive 3 weeks until today I bought a new LED monitor (I named it LADY!). That’s why I’m not posting anything for almost 2 months.

I put my LADY, and still not working until I found out that the chipset is not working too. I put it on another Chipset and it’s working. Then I realized that, I lost my graphic card too, My GE-Force undetected. GOSH! Why should everything deceased at time like this. When I’m broke enough after my trip *sigh*. Now, PASOKON is not working with GE-force as his graphic card, he use internal Graphic card VGA. As long as I’m not gaming, it’s quite fine… *deep-exhale*

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Christmas Gift for Audrey

Today I bought a little white teddy bear…

This year I’m not a petty Auntie like what I did last year (bought a SALE item santa singing dolls on January as a Christmas Gift -LOL). This year I make it on time! YOSHHH!!! I bought this little bear for 25 bucks.

Actually I want to buy another teddy bear named PP/Logo which has hinge on their neck, arms and legs so I can make the Teddy pose, but it’s quite expensive around 40 bucks (include the outfit), and they also sell the outfits with many occasion around 15 bucks for the clothes.  One day I will bought it for Audrey!!! Gomo would!!! A pair of them!!! muahahahahahaha *deep-inhale*

Look at that >>>

Cute, right? xD

*I want to have one too*

Then, it means I have to buy 3 PP/Logo (one for me and two for Audrey) which is worth for 120 bucks *geeez*

PP, why are you so expensiveeeee ??!!

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